Happiness is not our endgame, its a tool we should wield.

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My older brother retired from being a police officer before he turned 50. My older brother was a terrible brother. He was a narcissist and a bully. But, as an adult, my brother was an amazing police officer. His supervisors loved him because he did everything “by the book”, making them look good. The rank and file officers hated him because he did everything “by the book”, making them look bad. He once arrested a co-worker who left another police officer’s retirement party for drunk driving. …


Coming to terms with the job

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Danny and I met the first week in January. I had started the training to become a foster parent almost three years ago. It had taken me a year to complete the requirements the county put before me. It had been almost two years since I completed the training, so I mentally gave the county until my next birthday in March to match me with a foster child. If they failed to match me with a child by then, I would take my life in a different direction.

They reached out to me last October. They said they had a…


A mindfulness approach

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I began seeing a therapist when I was a teenager. I had a lot to feel sad about, what teenager doesn’t? My parents were divorcing, my older brother was bullying me, and my girlfriend broke up with me. I was unhappy, and I couldn’t figure out how to be happy. On the outside, I was the storybook kid. I was captain of my high school basketball team, senior class vice president, well-known and well-liked by teachers and classmates. Yet I was miserable.

Not only was I unable to feel happiness, but the more I tried to be happy, the more…

Lou Rentrag

Just trying to be happy…like everyone else.

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